Entry 028 Praying to be True to Ourselves
We often wear many masks and put on many hats. We serve various functions in different situations, and our identity can be connected to the many things we do and the people we are involved with. Our conversation is different to a co-worker than it may be to a fellow church member. Many people portray a different image of themselves on the internet than they do in person. We sometimes give ourselves to people who are not equipped to handle, value or appreciate the gravity of who we really are. Consequently, they take us for granted, or take from us, or take advantage of us. Sometimes because we have been so contorted by people and life, we do even know who we are anymore. We have forced ourselves into the boxes of other peoples’ expectations. Often times we have been mandated to do so many things we don’t want to do but have to do, that it is difficult to remember what we wanted in the first place. So much of our time can be spend helping other people, solving problems, trying to make ends meet, and trying to survive the emotional roller coaster of life that there is never time for self -evaluation. As we are constantly switching gears, balancing activities, and managing our obligations, we can often lose aspects of ourselves. Life is constantly making withdrawals, leaving us depleted and frustrated. If don’t make time to get into God’s presence, hear, read and study His word, and spend time in prayer, we will not get the deposits we need to live a successful, triumphant life. We cannot get what we need from any one person. God created a God-sized void in all of us that only He can fill. That is why our spirituality needs to be a priority. The one thing the Devil wants us to be is too busy to do introspection. He will crowd our lives and schedules with clutter preventing us from having time to mediate on God’s word, and getting quiet enough to hear from Him. In the Garden of Eden, the first question God asked man was “where are you”? That is a question we need to ask ourselves on some regular basis to evaluate our physical, mental, emotional, social, financial and spiritual states and lives. We need to take regular inventory on what is true to us and for us today. As our lives evolve, our personal truth changes as well. Growth and development involves discovering a higher truth. What was true for us in our youth may not be applicable for us as we age. And truth is subjective; what is true to and for one person may not be for someone else. That is why we need to run our own race, not comparing ourselves to others. And we need to uses God’s word, depending on the Holy Spirit for our meter of truth. No other source, including our own conscience can be totally reliable. Our conscience is so marred by experiences, pains, hurts, grievances, failures, and flaws that we cannot depend on it to reveal to us what is really true. We must depend on Jesus, the Spirit of Truth to lead and guide us. Our identity is not dependent on what we do and who we are associated with. True identity comes from an understanding of who we belong to, and a revelation of who God is to us. And as we seek to know Him, He reveals Himself to us, consequently showing us who we are. We waste so much time and energy trying to be something we are not called to be, trying to make people accept us who are not tied to our destiny, and engaging in activities that are not central to who we are. An indication of what we should be working on is the thing that bothers us the most. Perhaps the problems we see are indicative of the solutions God wants us to be in the earth. Jesus is the only unchanging way, truth and light. But our truth here on earth is constantly changing. The only constant here is the core, the seed, and the purpose that God put in each one of us from the foundation of the world. We have to continually uncover it and allow it to manifest itself in different ways and in different seasons of our lives. Even when we fail, God can always help us get back on track if we come to Him. So praying to be true to ourselves is striving to become what God created us to be walking boldly into our personal destiny.
Simple Sample Prayer
Dear God, thank you for knowing and having the ability to perform the good plans you have in store for us. Help us to lay down our agendas, goals and dreams at your feet so that you can reveal the greater purpose you have for our lives. Show us how to live our lives focused on being true to ourselves. We know we cannot lie or hide from you; although we may try to deceive ourselves and others. Help us to stand in our truth and move toward becoming more and more like you. And as you guide us toward being true to ourselves, we can transparently help others from a pure yet guarded heart. We ask this in Jesus name, Amen.